Better in Time

Today at the gym, I was jammin and getting my groove on. I was! LOL Then, this song came on in my mp3 lineup and then the thoughts came with it.I know this is a love song, but in a way, it is still just that but in a different way then was orginally intended I am sure.

See, I am letting go! Not of another person, but a part of me. This song is my song to that part of me that I have held onto for so long. The person who lived excuse after excuse, and allowing myself to blame others for my misleadings. I allowed myself to become very decieved by the person I should be able to trust the most ~ ME! When I want to eat badly, I allow myself to conjure up cravings. My body doesn't crave the junk anymore, but that part of me that I want to let go of does. She's a pig really. She just wants things her way and if she doesn't get it her way she throws a fit. But today I am saying my goodbyes. I am kind of sad now though, because when I think I want to blame someone, I have no body left to blame but ME. I know what I am doing. You can't lose 76 pounds and not know how. You can't have healthy and happy children in your home, and not be a pat of that. You can't become a better person without putting in the effort. I can't be the wife my husband deserves and that I was ordained for just because it happens. YOU HAVE TO DO IT! I am letting go of that part of me that has held me back for so long. I am letting go of that person who thinks it is okay to "splurge" now and then without feeling the reprocussions of that. I am letting her go. Cutting ties. Will I be sad? Heck no! I won't have a lonely winter, because see she has held me back so long that I have been down and lonely because of what she has turned my life into! But in the same sense like I said, I will have no one else but that part of me wanting a better life for herself. And, that's okay!

Here is the profound lyrics to that song:

Leona Lewis - Better In Time lyrics

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time



Lyrics | Leona Lewis lyrics - Better In Time lyrics

I love that when I workout, my brain just goes into overdrive, and I have the time to think and play these things out and not only do I leave with a good body workout but a good mind workout as well. You should try it sometime!