Expectations

I have come to the realization lately that if you do not have expectations, you can have realizations either. I have also come to the conclusion, that no matter what you do during the day, it is how you feel at the end of the day that matters most. You may feel good in an instant, but at the end of the day realize you just set yourself back one whole week. Did you realize that when you go off plan, you literally set yourself back that far? I didn't until this year!

July through the middle of December it was easy to say no, and not feel like I was hurting anyone'se feelings. And then I fell into the Holiday garbage trap and ate pure junk. Nothing that was good for me, did anyone? The beginning of the year brought promise ~ but yet I guess I wasn't ready. Haa haa as you have all witnessed in such short period of time.

I tried to purposely change my eating habits to fit more into what the world says I should eat, but why? For acceptance? For not having to spend every waking moment defending why I eat the high fat "crap" that most women avoid? ~ But.... in that short period of time I lost a part of me. The part that was on the bandwagon. Well guess what! Today, I found her! I did! She was hiding under the bed, with dreams of steak, chicken, and lots and lots of cream cheese! ~ Smile~ The good news is, she said she is ready to come out of hiding again, and take charge back over my health. And I am so glad. She couldnt' have come back in any better of time! No more hiding from the calorie police! Nope.. they can't have me!

We all lose weight in different ways, and for me, this is my way. But the main point of this blog entry today is to say one thing. YOU have to have expectations before you can have realizatons. See, sometimes you have to experience things before you can actually know what it is that either works, or is worth the effort. For me, weightloss is worth the effort. For my health yes, but... I am not shy about wanting to look good! That's right! Who wants to be an overweight puffy crabbycakes for their entire life? Not me! I refuse, and I am taking action. I may be vain and say sure one day I would like to be a MILF (haa haa), and not a mom that my kids are embarrased to have around.

So, while some of my motivation is vanity ~ a big majority is to be healthy and be around for along time!